Buck up

[x_husk]

I get that you are all trying to help with your enthusiasic optimism. That somehow, if I have hope, then it will be okay. It will get me through this.

Let me state two things, however:
1) I have already been through this. "There's a chance" will not get you through anything. It just makes it harder afterwords.
2) I know a lot more about what exactly happened, about Jay and his mutation, then you do. When whatever example you want to use today survived certain death, none of them had the only reason they could have ripped out of them. Jay did.

If you have any respect for me whatsoever, stop shoving in my face how much you believe he's alive until there is a body. If a body means knowing exactly what they did to him, I don't want one. I want to remember Jay, not a bloody mess of tissue.

Thank you to the offers of kindness regarding my other post, and to my stupid older brother for not waiting for a reply and breaking into my lab with cookies anyway. Even though I don't really eat cookies.

Comments

[x-cannonball.livejournal.com]

We all have our ways, Paigey. I don't think it would hurt you to at least entertain the idea of being optimistic. It's not easy but I'd do the same for you. I wouldn't stop looking until I knew.

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

Yes, we do all have our ways, and our right to our own opinion. Which is why I would appreciate if people would stop thinking that right now I'm heavily interested in theirs.

"Oh, here's the milk, and did you know, I think your brother's alive?" "Great DR session, I think Jay is alive." "Hey, could you help me with my math homework? Jay's alive."

It's tiresome and frustrating.

(Note, to the last persons who mentioned their opinions, I'm sorry. This is not a private matter I thought to bring public. I hope you understand that it's something that had spread to several persons, had the potential to go further, and I wanted to have it done all at once.)

[x-cannonball.livejournal.com]

I'm having the opposite problem. Maybe we just notice more when we disagree with them.

[xp_daytripper]

If we agree with each other, does that mean the world's going to end?

(Personally I'd love for people to be able to say "I told you so". But some evidence you can't ignore. Especially if you want to at least attempt to grieve and move on.)

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

I do believe it is...

Quick! Tell everyone how everyone adores you!