Buck up

[x_husk]

I get that you are all trying to help with your enthusiasic optimism. That somehow, if I have hope, then it will be okay. It will get me through this.

Let me state two things, however:
1) I have already been through this. "There's a chance" will not get you through anything. It just makes it harder afterwords.
2) I know a lot more about what exactly happened, about Jay and his mutation, then you do. When whatever example you want to use today survived certain death, none of them had the only reason they could have ripped out of them. Jay did.

If you have any respect for me whatsoever, stop shoving in my face how much you believe he's alive until there is a body. If a body means knowing exactly what they did to him, I don't want one. I want to remember Jay, not a bloody mess of tissue.

Thank you to the offers of kindness regarding my other post, and to my stupid older brother for not waiting for a reply and breaking into my lab with cookies anyway. Even though I don't really eat cookies.

Comments

[x-cannonball.livejournal.com]

We all have our ways, Paigey. I don't think it would hurt you to at least entertain the idea of being optimistic. It's not easy but I'd do the same for you. I wouldn't stop looking until I knew.

[xp_daytripper]

If we agree with each other, does that mean the world's going to end?

(Personally I'd love for people to be able to say "I told you so". But some evidence you can't ignore. Especially if you want to at least attempt to grieve and move on.)